If You're Bound & You're Gagged, Draped & Displayed...

trashy_oi @ 2004-04-14T20:26:00

2004-04-15T00:31:18Z

for your information I didn't post the anonymous post in your LJ I wouldn't stoop that low...and you should know that. Besides this is gay shit and I don't want to fucking start anything. I've moved on I'm very happy with everything right now. I was hurt about a lot of things but I'm over it. I have a wonderful person in my life n I'm forgetting all the bullshit I went through. Ok? Peace

ME!!!!!!!!

2004-02-12T03:53:14Z

YOu can kinda see my nose. But yea..

Gay.

2004-01-21T05:08:27Z

Uh. Yea I took these pix at Marissa's they kinda are stupid but yea.

yay gay pictures. I just found out my fone bill fer my cell is $108.00. Haha and guess who hasta pay? me. CUZ NO ONE ELSE WILL PAY FOR MY PHONE BILLS!

Don't mind the 1/20's under my pix haha.

I'm bored so THERE.

2004-01-11T03:55:25Z

YEa. I came home early. So I'm going to entertain you with some nice pictures. SOme are alil old some are recent. Oh yea.

Bored in Marissa's Bathroom.

Me n Alyson in Fernys' Class.

The Wonderful Pires.

Me being awfully gay.

ME AND MY DADDY!!

My lovely lil sister.

trashy_oi @ 2003-12-12T15:32:00

2003-12-12T20:40:42Z

Pain;
Heart bleeding with confusion.
The dagger has set in,
As she lays helpless,
Helpless with hope.
The chains hold her down no more,
as she punches the concrete hard.
Red fills the hands,
the hands that were giving.
Her eyes stone cold,
Watching the starlit sky.
Under her breath she whispers…
One day.

Cool. Peace.

trashy_oi @ 2003-12-02T20:16:00

2003-12-03T01:21:39Z

Friends only cuz stupid little cunts like to start shit. Comment to be added.

love,
me

::mmmm:: fruity pebbles.

2003-09-19T16:26:53Z

Shit has been depressing. But Steve Love put my pinny on in gym yesterday cuz i didn't kno howta haha. That kid's awesome.

trashy_oi @ 2003-06-01T00:11:00

2003-06-01T04:11:57Z

i fucking lveo vodka. anmd i love ryan.

Rockin

2003-05-21T01:24:19Z

That's all I've been saying..."Rockin" don't ask...hmm..I've been doing a lotta stupid shit..I fucking hate chris..He has a gf..and he announced it all over his fucking away message..so I told him he was a dickhead and to never talk to me ever again. I blocked him. I seriously fucking hate his guts. Anyway.....I've been puking like mad...I dunno what's wrong with me. Whatever. I saw Bloody today. I love that kid. He makes me so happy. I went to McDonalds with Cuozzo tonight and some kid screamed out "I'm not a fucking mod" and I asked Natalie what he was talking about and he sed that he claims I sed he was a mod. I'm like wtf? I've never seen that kid in my fucking life. But I remember the guy he was with at the fair. ANd I sed that the kid that he was with was hot..I guess they got mixed up. Wow I fucking hate everyone...Lord. I HATE EVERYONE!!!!! FUCK PEOPLE! Bloody shaved his mohawk off. Cuz he didn't go to rehab and his school made him. =( He's still hot as fuck. I feel like I'm gunna fucking puke again. Wonderful. I have an analysis paper due tomorrow but I don't feel like doing it. I'll prolly just make up something and get an extension. Or just skip that class. These fucking pop ups are fucking pissing me off. I'm gunna go puke later.

WE DID THE TANGO!

2003-05-12T03:58:50Z

I forgot to get my mom a Mother's Day present because I was too stoned. How sad is that?

I Have to Tell You....

2003-05-06T22:12:48Z

....About my bestest friend kait...NOT katie...Kait. We live about two streets down...I love her very much...We've known each other since....2nd grade. That's a longggg time for Miss Bianca's friendships. We spent loads of time together and have insignificant fights about...well something so unimportant that I've forgotten. We tell each other everything and she's always there for me. I really don't like her boyfriend though because he's a meanie. He called me a whore. Enough of this depressing will stuff. I love kaity. YES I LOVE KAITY. Dinner's ready so now kaity and I must eat.

::mmmmm:: frosted flakes.

2003-05-06T19:49:16Z

THEIR GRRRRRRRRRRRRRREAT! hahah. Sorry bout the other entry I was pissed off. So yea...urm..I'm sittin here eating frosted flakes yummay. This weekend was eventful..Everyone knows me at Prestige. Haha how sad is that? Katie and I bought a crab on saturday cuz we were bored..We named her Sandra..It's a soft shell crab we took pix:

YEs yes that's our crab. On Sunday Frank, Bloody, Artur, Bobby, and Me went to shawn's house. I met Tim (shawn's brother) and his gf. Aw man she's awesome and soo cute! She's like ur going out with Bloody? I'm like yea she's like AW you're so cute!!! He always talks about u *smiles*. And she did an impression of him and his english accent. hehe. Artur was pissing me off cuz all he kept doing was make fun of me. I hate him so much. In lunch the other day I was about to fuckin kick the shit out of him. Margo (tims gf) didn't like him either cuz he was making fun of me. I got so mad at him that I made a scene in the lunchroom, went over to his table, punched him in the chest, and he grabbed my arms. The table next to them was like OHHHH and being gay so I told them to fuck themselves haha. But grrr that kid pisses me off. Everyone was like that was so funny at lunch today everyone was looking at u guys. =) leave it to Bianca to make a scene. K I'm out like whoa.

Dope Sick Girl.

2003-05-04T16:44:36Z

Wow. Everything happened sooo fast. First it was fun and games now it's all down the tubes. Wasn't it always? The circle closing everyone having bad luck. Chris was right it is coming to haunt us. I hate to admit it..I hate agreeing with him. But it makes sense. I talked to Mari last night..She's moving to PA for reasons I can't share. It depresses me...Frank was all bent out of shape and I was there as always to listen to him. Chris is fucked up royally in the head...Bloody's starting rehab on Monday even though he's been to rehab a million times. If only I could share with you guys how everythings affecting me and all the people I care about are fucked up cause of all this shit. Of course I'm the asshole as chris calls me...Just because I care about him still. I don't know what's wrong with him. I did everything I could I swear..I wrote him letters I was always there to talk to him...I cared for him...I loved him...But all I got was my face kicked in. I don't know what I did. I just wish he wasn't so fucked up. *sigh* I'm gunna go cuz you people prolly have no idea what I'm talking about right now...Maybe in the next entry I'll be a little bit clearer. I doubt it.

Tired as FUck

2003-05-01T17:47:39Z

I've been so sick and tired lately.I think I'm diseased. Let's see I had a funfilled week so far. I saw Mari...I love that girl. She wanted to hook up with me and she even asked Bloody hahaha. He's like I don't care. I saw some shit that really depressed me though. I really don't wanna share it. I was drunk on SUnday Mari came over then finished the absolute with me. We went to Hop Hing er "hot pink" hahaha got more drunk there. Pizza Stop (my work) charged me 25 cents for fucking soup cups how rude! They're like why do you need them? I'm like uhh cuz my friend and I wanted to split our drink. HAHA. VODKA. ::mmmmm:: I love it. So Bloody got to see me drunk off my ass. We then went to Shawn's house to see if he was there but he wasn't. So we chilled at Bloody's house. Mari wanted to have a threesome so I'm like ok come here Bloody and started making out with him and she slapt me on the head drunk saying STOP SUCKING FACE! gahaha it was great. THen Monday I went over Bloody's chilled with him for a while...Mari came we went to barnes and nobles and that was pretty much it. I talked to chris again....He knows that I'm "with" Bloody. I didn't want him to know or anything cuz I really don't think it's any of his business. I know I still have some sorta feeling for him but I dunno. I'm trying to get over it cuz all he caused me was pain. *sigh* I stayed home from school today cuz I was tired. I fixed my rancid shirt. Now it's tighter thank god. It was pissing me off. Now I think I'm gunna fuck around with my clash shirt. mwahahahahaha. Ok yea I'm gunna go cuz I have a super idea.

Peace Love and Pretzels.

UPDATE!!!! I fucked my clash shirt up. Don't mind the blurryness and fatness =)

Fuck Your Mom.

2003-04-27T16:14:43Z

WOo. I'm so beat. And I do NOT wanna go to school tomorrow. It's been an eventful week I guess. The end was the best. Cuz in the beginning of my break I hadda work like whoa cuz the fucks at my job always have something to do and of course I get stuck with working. I hate working on Fridays..But that's when I'm always fucking scheduled and I'M SICK OF IT! I went to Prestige last night (what else is new). Katie and I got drunk of the way of walking there. Note to self: Never do that again. End note to self. I couldn't see straight while I was walking haha. We saw Cristina at Prestige and natalie. I was so fucked up man. Then we were talking to these kids next to us. He kept calling me a lush. ANd he's like You're like oi and you have a cell phone? I'm like EXCCCCCCCCCUSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I pay for this fucker. And he's just like I've never seen that one before. I'm like well reformed punk rocker suck me I have a job. He used to work at Pizza Stop haha. But before I did. He was kinda rude. I guess it's cuz Katie and I were kinda tipsy. I managed to smoke all of my cigarettes at the diner. I didn't even realize it. I talked to Bloody last night too. He was going to a party to be obnoxious and snooty like he always is. He's like what are you gunna do tonight..I'm like prolly go to prestige and get drunk he's like what else is new. HAha. I ALWAYS go to Prestige. Just for their chocolate milk. Alotta people were at Prestige last night. I'm like what the fuck? Why does it have to be when I'm so drunk!!? LORD. This chick asked if I was going out with Bloody I'm like whooooa how do you know? and she's like my brother was hanging out with him the other night. I thought that was pretty funny. Yea so I came home, put my pj's on, checked my messages, and fell on my bed. I hate falling asleep when the room is still spinning. Everyone on my buddylist is away. BLAH! I'm suppose to see Malibu's Most Wanted today with Anus cuz she came back from Hawaii. Hopefully we'll chill. I miss her. She bought me a shirt =). I think there's something wrong with me. I have NO appetite what so ever but I keep eating. I think I have a problem. *rubs eyes* or maybe it's just I'm on my rag and that happens. MY MOM SAW MY HICKY! I told her that Artur bit me HAHAHAHAHA. She's like what did I tell that boy! (She told him to stop biting me cuz I get really bad bruises) She said I might be anemic cuz I bruise so easily. I'm afriad to get tested though cuz I fucking HATE needles. I had bad experiences with those things *shivers*. Ok Well I'm going to go find something to do now. Maybe call Marissa and ask what sexual things she did with her bf the other night cuz I'm a sicko like that. =)

Peace Love & Pretzels.

Cigarettes and Vodka.

2003-04-26T16:00:45Z

Ello. I'm sitting in my cousins room on her laptop. This has been like the best two days....I went to NY on Thursday with my aunt and my kick ass cousin ronnie. We went to the village. ANd my aunt said me and ron could walk around alil. So me and ronnie took a cab to St. Marks and went thrifting and to trash and vaudeville. The chicks that worked there were kinda snobby. But anyway I got this cute lil vest with leopard on it and studs. Before we went to the village we went to H&M and I got some sorta fishnet top. Haha. It's cute. This black guy that worked there wanted my cell # so we gave him a fake one. EVERYONE was commenting on me and veronica. SOMEONE GROWLED AT ME!!!!!! And we were both wearin skirts and about 5 people said we have beautiful legs. It was so fuckin scary. We went to this thrift shop and these guys were putting lights on there balcony and asked me and ronnie to come up and chill with them. They were so hot. hahaha. But we sed no cuz we were shoppin. I was gunna get my septum done but my aunt woulda been pissed and I didn't want her to be. My aunt rosie rocks tho. So we did our shopping and shtuff...and came back home. Ronnie and I watched Murder by Numbers and we fell asleep. On Friday Chrissie (my other cousin) came and she took us to Applebees and shit. I've been smoking so much. I quit along time ago but I'm startin up again =/ We went to this cool place called like the town grind. It was awesome it was in denville. The couches were nice hEhe. We came back home at 7, watched a movie, then round 10 we hauled ass to the diner. Aw man there was this group of kids that walked in...One had spiky spiky hair and another was just fucking cute. They were like staring at me and shit. One asked fer a cig. it was funny. As we were goin out they were leavin too and I asked for a quarter and the dude with the spiky hair was like can i see ur tits? I'm like haha SURE. Then the other hot one was like can i see all of u? hahahah. It was so funny. I was standin outside and they gave me a bottle of ketchup. For some odd reason I was gunna throw it but they took it back. har har. Yea it was a weird evening. Then Chrissy bought me vodka. mwahahahaha. Katie and I are gunna get drunk soon. I drank alill of it when we came home but I didn't feel that great before so I just fell asleep. And that was basically everything that happened in bianca words. I'm trying to do this fast cuz my hands are gettin tired of typing. So if I forget to say anything I'll do it in another entry. LATAs.

OHHHHHHHH.

2003-04-24T04:16:03Z

Well I'm happy as fuck. I saw Bloody =) I went to Kait's snuck out with kait..went to frank's with some random guy who bought us alcohol. Chilled at frank's with Bloody..Can't tell you the rest but kait managed to see whole lotta bianca today hahaha. And Bloody gave me a huge ass hicky on my neck. fun. I'm just sooooooooooooooo FUCKING HAPPY that I saw him. the end.

Lord.

2003-04-24T01:02:08Z

I'm so depressed right now. I'm on my fucking rag. I just got home from work thinking that kait and I were going to hang out...But yea she's not home...*sigh* So now I don't have anyone to hang out with..The other katie can't get a ride to my house either....Therefore we can't go to Prestige. Bloody went to a party with Frank and left me a message on my computer saying I suck because I always have work =/ Well he sucks for never being home all the time. I coulda hung out with him all this week but he was never home so he shouldn't complain that I'm always working....But whatever. I wanted to see him before I went to the city I'm not coming back till friday...But he wasn't home at all today..Only the time I was working...He didn't even call my cell and it was right on my fucking away message. Fuck him. I'm now pissed off. Marissa's too tired to hang out with me cuz she was too busy fucking her boyfriend last night. So basically I'm getting ditched by everyone. Wow I love my friends. On a lighter note Bloody and I have been going out for 3 weeks. Chris's birthday is the 27th..I miss him like crazy..I think I might call him up and wish him a happy birthday..I dunno though. Yea uhh more good fucking news. My cousin told my aunt that I was going to get my nose pierced in the city and then my aunt told my mom. She sed she would rather take me. fuck her I'm getting it. I'm gunna go pack er something. Fuck you all.

BURP

2003-04-22T04:28:23Z

I got my new cell phone cuz my other one fuckin broke. I got a new one fer free. Go me. so fuckin call me bitches 908-656-0451. I just got off the phone with Mari. I love that girl. We possibly might chill tomorrow. I finally saw Bloody today. =) he said that he missed me *smiles insanely* and he didn't want to call cuz he doesn't want my mom getting mad at me. I really like this boy. I smell like Bloody and Camel Lights haha. Aw man I'm so bored. Bored bored bored. I think I'm just gunna go to sleep er something. Laters.

PIST AND BORED.

2003-04-21T03:28:15Z

full name - Bianca Alyssa Rehner.
nicknames - B. Binaca. Binatcha. Airhead.
city and state you were born in - Scummit NJ.
state you live in now - NJUB.
birthdate - August 5th.
astrological sign - Leo.
school - GL.
height - 5'7"
shoe size - 8 1/2.
righty or lefty - righty.

what do you think about the way you look - I hate it.
what do you think about your attitude - I'm an angry child.
what do you think about life after death - I'm gunna go around haunting people.
what do you think about love - Sometimes it's false.
what do you think about fate - I believe in it.
what do you think about yourself- I'm a blonde at heart looking for a good fuckin time.
what do you tell yourself when times get hard - It's only just begun.
what are you scared of - paranoia getting the best of me.
what would life be without friends - It would be fucking horrible.
without family - It would kinda suck.
do you dream a lot - sexually? yes.
do you dream in black and white or color - color.
do you remember any of your dreams - yea the sexual ones.
where is your dream make out spot - I really don't have one.
what is your dream kiss like - it's already happened. First time like a fairytale *sigh* with a bad fuckin ending.
what is your dream job - someone famous.
describe is your dream house - a castle.
what is your dream vacation - All around the world...I realllly wanna go to England and Italy.
do you believe that dreams are a gateway to your soul - not really.

parents' names - Maria and Robert
do you live with both of them - nopers. I live with mi madre.
any siblings if so, what are their names - Anthony, Francesca, Ashley, and Ryan.
do you get along with your siblings - rarely.
do you get along with your parents - sometimes.
do you write in an journal or diary - I used to keep one. When I have something that's on my mind I'll write it down.
do you keep an organizer - hell no.
do you believe in love at first sight - eh. Yes and No. It depends.
do you believe that every person has a soul mate - nope.
do you believe in God - somewhat.
do you believe in a strong education - I fucking hate school.
do you believe in horoscopes - sometimes the shit that they say is ironic. But not really.
do you believe in yourself- nope.
do you shower daily - yea.
do you cry easily - def. I'm an emotional little fuck. Thanks to someone I know.
do you believe in Heaven - hmms.
do you believe in Hell - no comment.
do you believe in reincarnation - alittle.

day of the week - Don't have one..They all suck.
ice cream - Cookies and Cream. Or cookie dough. My sister and I always used to bond with cookie dough.
movies - SLC Punk. Sid and Nancy. Lost Boys. Mallrats. A Clockwork Orange. Pretty in Pink. The Breakfast Club. Fight Club.
actors - Matthew Lillard, Johnny Depp, Corey Haim.
actresses - Alyssa Milano.
quote - "We're all just barely floatin along waiting for someone who can walk on water."
songs - Misfits- Hybrid Moments. A Global Threat- Work or War. and many fucking more.
bands - Oxymoron, Global Threat, Misfits, Ptw, look at my info page fucks.
singers/rappers - 50 cent. Necro. Eminem.
season - Fall.
colors - Hot pink. Red. Black.
flowers - Roses.

when you hear ___ you think of…
baseball - Balls.
Jeff - The kid in my math class.
dog - doggay style yo.
warm apple pie - penis.
socks - are on my floor.
fish - suck.
nails - mine are pink!
swimming - drowning.
giant eagle - watch out.
a nun - Lesbians.
the number 69 - SExual position.
school - can suck it.

who is your overall best friend - Don't know.
who is your second best friend - I don't have a lot of best friends.
who is your third best friend - Read above.
who is your fourth best friend - Ok shut the fuck up with this friend thing.
you tell your dreams to - Everyone.
you tell your fears to - Well when I'm paranoid about something I talk to Katie or Kait. Both actually.
have dreamt about you - Kait
knows everything about you - Marissa prolly haha.
you tell your secrets to - Close friends.
is the loudest - Me.
can't live without - A lotta people.
is the most trendy - *shrugs
is the most annoying - *shrug
lives the farthest away - Chris But I don't know if I really consider him a friend.
lives the closest to you - Marissa.
most like you - Katie.
what do you look for in a friend - Loyalty and someone that isn't afraid to be stupid and obnoxious.

boyfriend/girlfriend's name - Bloody.
where does that special some one live - two fuckin streets down from me.
things you like in the opposite sex - Tall. Oi boy.
which is more important looks or personality - personality.
first boyfriend/girlfriend - Chris was my first real bf. *sigh*

if you had the choice to spin around the sun, or walk on the moon, which would you choose and why - Walk on the Moon cuz I wanna jump in the craters they look fun.
what color do you think best describes you - none.
if you could be doing anything right now, what would you be doing - Making out with Bloody.
would you ever share you heart completely with someone else - yea I've already done that and it got me nowhere.
which sense could you not live without, and why - Sound because then I couldn't listen to music and that would suck cuz music is my therapy.
have you ever written on a mirror if so what did you write - Nope.
if you could change one thing you did in the last 24 hours, what would it be and why - NOthing.
do you prefer sleeping outside beneath the night sky, or your cozy bed indoors - My bed. I love that thing. Lotta memories on that bed.
what is the most beautiful thing in the world - NOthing.
name one person whose changed your life for the better - No one really.

I was fucking bored so I filled out this stupid quiz. And I'm pissed at Bloody cuz HE'S MIA.

Chocolate Milk and Hardcore.

2003-04-20T02:36:12Z

Ouchies. That's my arm if you couldn't figure it out and the white spot is a nice lil ciggarette burn. Yea...katie and I went to the prestige. Rockin the NP diner. We were being so obnoxious to everyone it was great. The only thing prestige is good for is their chocolate milk. haha. I'm so bored and pissed off. I haven't talked to Bloody in like 2 days and I haven't seen him in a week. =( I miss his stupid ass. He's prolly smoking up with sean somewhere. That boy needs a fucking cell phone. Hopefully he'll be back before I go to the city. I've been working so much this week I better get good cash man. I worked monday wed. friday saturday..Then next week I gotta work wed. again then wed. I'm not gunna see eric until next next friday. He's what makes work fucking awesome. I love eric. I was gunna chill with mari tonight but I called and she didn't pick up her cell. It's so hard getting in touch with that girl. Oneday we gots to go to the city tho. Oh yea I might possibly get my nose pierced next week when I go to the city. Joey told me about this place on St. Marks. Hopefully my plans will fall through. Ok I'm gunna go chill. Laters.

Woosh

2003-04-17T03:14:40Z

hehe isn't he purty? Wow. I'm really new to this livejournal shit. I have an opendiary and I'm so used to that. Everyone from opendiary like moved though to livejournal and I felt lonely. So yea. If anyone can help me customize my journal it would be greatly appreciated. Today sucked ass. I miss bloody like whoa. Hopefully we can chill during break. I'm kinda mad at him tho for leaving me to go some guys house. PSSH. Ok yea I'm gunna fuck around with my journal thinger now. Latas.

Motha FUCKAS

2003-04-11T03:45:20Z

Hello everyone I's bianca.